Saturday 28 June 2008

a world of pure imagination

Azi am chef de engleza. You can skip if you so wish.

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I wish I were an artist. I live in dreams too much. I keep wishing I could draw, or paint, or play an instrument. A long time ago, I used to write. I don't any more. I find everything stupid, shallow and unnecessary. What exactly am I trying to say? I was never a Carrie Bradshaw, I never attempted to write meaningful anything, but when I did write, I was never happy enough. It always fell flat. What was I saying that someone hadn't said before?

People take so many photographs nowadays. And maybe it's a pang of envy I feel whenever I see the photos other take of the world. I want photos of knees and smiles, corners of mouths and collarbones. I want shy girls smiling awkwardly, I want wrists and ankles and earlobes, sculpted white skin and glimpses of eyelashes. I like to photograph (in my mind) couples holding hands and old couples leaning on each other for support.

I cloudspot. I like faded clouds, like wisps of forgotten dreams, dark clouds like tendrils in a nightmare, I like sunsets that paint the sky Monet, I like kittens staring into my lens, I like lightning criss-crossing the sky and splitting it in so many pieces it's surreal.

Sometimes, I wish I could show that to the world. I wish I could hide behind my lens and snap away until the shadows grow long and the light is too poor for proper art. But if I can't hold down a proper blog, who do I think I'm kidding with my silly little imaginary pieces of art? I have a lens in my mind, but it's always out of focus, and it came before sepia and b&w.

4 comments:

delu said...

first of all better english than german si in al 2-lea rand vedete-as scriind asa frumos in germana.....

waste of paint said...

Haha, de unde sa fie germana la acelasi nivel cu engleza? Si ma mir ca stii ca vorbesc germana o_O Dar da, poate intr-o zi, o sa scriu si in germana

delu said...

sunt de acord cu tine , si eu prefer engleza dar desigur stii ce capodopere sau scris in germana.
cea mai buna limba insa este cea materna si romana are mult mai multe sinonime ptr acelas cuvant de cat engleza chiar

delu said...

"Sometimes, I wish I could show that to the world"....I am sure you will succeed ...